Back from my hiatus

Hi guys.

I want to apologize for the unexpected, unannounced hiatus from blogging (and well, life in general, really). For the past 11 days, I’ve been in Maine with my family enduring one of the most difficult experiences anyone could ever have to deal with. A week ago Friday we lost Dan’s mother’s to a courageous battle with pancreatic cancer.

It still hasn’t really hit me yet that she’s really gone, but when it does, it will be hard. She was such a huge part of my life. It didn’t matter that she didn’t give birth to me and that Dan and I are not {yet} married… she treated me as as much a part of the family as her own children. That meant so much to me. I hope she realized just how much that meant to me.

The hardest part of losing her is that Garrett lost his Grammie. He’ll be too little to remember her, and how much she loved him. Oh, did she love him. I’m so glad that we had him just in time for her to spend her last six months loving and adoring that little guy. He has really been a bright spot in all of our lives over these last several days. He has her spirit, that’s for sure. Always smiling, always happy, always laughing. It’s what I’ll miss the most about her, and what I’m so thrilled will live on in my child.

So now, we attempt to get back to real life. The past week has been so unbelievable stressful. We left work last Thursday and rushed to Maine to be with her in her final hours. By the weekend, the transmission was gone in my car. We planned to leave Wednesday (the day after the funeral) but that then got moved to Thursday night. Thursday night would have gotten us home just in time to beat Winter Storm Nemo. However, our car was not done Thursday night; it was done Friday morning and by then it was already snowing. We hunkered down and waited out the storm (which left 2+ feet where we were in Maine and also here at home in Massachusetts), finally getting home this afternoon.

I’m exhausted. I’m drained physically and emotionally. I’m blogging and crocheting to distract my mind. I have 8 Etsy orders and 3 product reviews which should keep me busy for awhile. I don’t want to think about what comes next.

About Ashley

Ashley is the newest writer for One Little Mister. She is a 25 year old preschool teacher and first time mother to son Garrett. Her interests include breastfeeding, crafting, researching child growth and development topics until all hours of the night, drinking lots of coffee, and talking about cricket on twitter.

Comments

  1. I am very sorry for your loss. I lost my grandfather to pancreatic cancer when I was 18. It was very difficult.

    I believe that as long as you all keep telling him stories about his grandmother and how much she loved him, he will know and even feel that love.

    Wishing you and yours good memories and healing during these times.

    Jayme

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